2011 a day the mind

today i felt a little more energetic.
i wasnt as lazy as ive been,
umm
i got up, i saw people i love
i spoke to loved ones
i worked
i exchanged words and thoughts and feelings.
i pondered without obsessing who I AM
and yeah,
today was a good day.
i just wish i spoke to my mum.

*note
i spoke to a good lady who i understood to be troubled
she was reluctant to admit that wat i perceived was true
she finally revealed, with positive reluctance (aka relief )
that she was concerned about her daughter, (in another country) who hadnt called in 2 days and she couldnt reach her
those two days, rocked her nerves.
i told her it would be okay,

but one can only a imagine a love from a parent to his or her child.

im not saying all of us have received that love,
but regardless, we understand that it should be great, and when its there,
it reaches the ends of the heavens and earth.

I was thinkin
God, if he is at all like a universal parent
then one could see the world in a positive light.
the ones who have it unfair
are like doses of reality to the 'free'.
and they in turn,
understand how to truely cherish life.
when you are living on faith, your heart gets strong.
you no longer depend on anything, or anybody to give you love or what you think you feel you need or want
You began the process of possesing love itself.
You become love.

goodnite