Heart of Darkness (what does the dark look like?)

a slow mysterious swirl of knowlege,
knowing for yourself what the dark-side can taste like
i dont need to warn you
some people become addicted
most do.
its a sweet poison, made for man.

"Ive done too much!
and maybe my too much, is just enough.
ive spoken too much
ive drank too much
ive fucked too much
i did a little of every thing too damn much!
and now I am here, laying down,
 and confessing to you."

i am not as good as you think i am, and i am not as bad as i think i am.
with too much knowledge!
you begin to become unatural!
the seeds of judgement are planted!
I judge!
you judge!
we judge ourselves.

but we cannot stop the knowledge from happening
pondering on such matters as to why, or how, or when, are nothing but a distraction.
the dark is here now,
because it always was
and it has never left.

yes, we are children of the light.
what does darkness look like
it is hidden and yet transparent.
the dark looks like the ugliness we hold inside ourselves.
knocking on our every thought and word..
the background of our childhoods..

my thoughts are rocking..lets call this a day
(written way before the date i pressed publish)